It was going to happen today.
I woke up around 9 am, went online. got a replied thanks god! I feel alive. But why she still have doubts. Finally, in the evening, he came online. They talked about what had happen 2 days ago.
"You don't know my life.. You don't know how he live.. What he have.. Which troubles he have.. which thoughts in his mind.. Just listen". He said.
"He don't have easy life.. Trust me", He said. Things he never tell her.. Makes his life harder after these.. He really can't manage little stupid things and she is not like mature". He said. "It is not enough for him for his life.."
"He's not her who just shopping and hang out with friends. He have so many problems and he don't want new ones even they are so stupid, he said. So he will think both of them what to do. He will think it twice about them, he said.
"OMG!". She said.
"Maybe he will ask her for taking break". He said. He told her he will think it first. He is not teenage he can't carry things anymore, he said. "He just feel he need respectful in his life". "He's not 18 he's got sick of arguments".
"Are you tired of us?", She said.
*She crossed her toes and fingers* waiting for the answer. No, I don't want to hear his response. But well, she needs to know.
He replied, "if she only knew who he is she really would get him he's already tired".
Break the silence..
"But he will focus his personal problems more any more he's not leaving her".
He said.
"Are we still...
she paused for a while. you know?". Her eyes cold, hard, glittering, on hers.
"Yes, he told her he's not leaving her but maybe there will be a break he need time, he said.
She breathed deeply through her nostrills, telling herself this can't be happening..
She's starting to cry.. about what she said about him. she's blaming herself cuz of what had happened between them. :(
"You know what happened in his life in May and June?". He said. He don't tell her 'cause it's so early to tell her terribly life and I don't want to share it".
But...
It doesn't mean he is good..
"I love you too but he said, but they don't have harmony".
She replied, "she will take a break for how many days, months or what?
PLS.... she said.
"He don't know he is confused in his soul.
Nope, don't say that, she said.
Yes, he said.
Every night he cry.
Every night he is sad enough.
So much.
Silence.....
He told her he's not leaving her and he don't want it either but...
he need time for his self.. to be alone.. Don't cry, he said. Pls. Don't cry.
He need few weeks maybe.
She said, "should she wait for him in a weeks time?".
"Or you can leave me that time". he said.
Nope, the girl said.
"He don't have this idea. He don't feel safe".
".Something is wrong between them. They couldn't catch the harmony yet. And these times are important for him 'cause he have to solve somethings".
Damn her! The girl, said.
"Don't say to yourself". He said. Maybe he's too wrong person for her".
You are right, for me and so proud she say that.
"Hope so", he said.
After the things happened, she can't imagine she did that for him it's nonsense stupid everything she's bad she can't forgive herself, DAMN!
I guess... he said.
"This break will be good for him and her...
Then he's gone.. he got dc.
The girl didn't expect this to happen between the two of them. Can't believe he's asking her to take a break.. OMG! they need a break! ouch! she said. :(
She have nothing to do but cry, cry and cry.. She cried the whole night. It's her fault, she's not mature! She admit it!
Seems he was falling apart.
That night under the cold, rainy nights, she really don't know what to do. She just browsed the pics, listened and watched his voice on his video. And she cried again. Because he broke her, kept her broken in pieces around her feet, and didn't have the courage to mend her again.
And that was how it was,because she would always be that:
Broken
I woke up around 9 am, went online. got a replied thanks god! I feel alive. But why she still have doubts. Finally, in the evening, he came online. They talked about what had happen 2 days ago.
"You don't know my life.. You don't know how he live.. What he have.. Which troubles he have.. which thoughts in his mind.. Just listen". He said.
"He don't have easy life.. Trust me", He said. Things he never tell her.. Makes his life harder after these.. He really can't manage little stupid things and she is not like mature". He said. "It is not enough for him for his life.."
"He's not her who just shopping and hang out with friends. He have so many problems and he don't want new ones even they are so stupid, he said. So he will think both of them what to do. He will think it twice about them, he said.
"OMG!". She said.
"Maybe he will ask her for taking break". He said. He told her he will think it first. He is not teenage he can't carry things anymore, he said. "He just feel he need respectful in his life". "He's not 18 he's got sick of arguments".
"Are you tired of us?", She said.
*She crossed her toes and fingers* waiting for the answer. No, I don't want to hear his response. But well, she needs to know.
He replied, "if she only knew who he is she really would get him he's already tired".
Break the silence..
"But he will focus his personal problems more any more he's not leaving her".
He said.
"Are we still...
she paused for a while. you know?". Her eyes cold, hard, glittering, on hers.
"Yes, he told her he's not leaving her but maybe there will be a break he need time, he said.
She breathed deeply through her nostrills, telling herself this can't be happening..
She's starting to cry.. about what she said about him. she's blaming herself cuz of what had happened between them. :(
"You know what happened in his life in May and June?". He said. He don't tell her 'cause it's so early to tell her terribly life and I don't want to share it".
But...
It doesn't mean he is good..
"I love you too but he said, but they don't have harmony".
She replied, "she will take a break for how many days, months or what?
PLS.... she said.
"He don't know he is confused in his soul.
Nope, don't say that, she said.
Yes, he said.
Every night he cry.
Every night he is sad enough.
So much.
Silence.....
He told her he's not leaving her and he don't want it either but...
he need time for his self.. to be alone.. Don't cry, he said. Pls. Don't cry.
He need few weeks maybe.
She said, "should she wait for him in a weeks time?".
"Or you can leave me that time". he said.
Nope, the girl said.
"He don't have this idea. He don't feel safe".
".Something is wrong between them. They couldn't catch the harmony yet. And these times are important for him 'cause he have to solve somethings".
Damn her! The girl, said.
"Don't say to yourself". He said. Maybe he's too wrong person for her".
You are right, for me and so proud she say that.
"Hope so", he said.
After the things happened, she can't imagine she did that for him it's nonsense stupid everything she's bad she can't forgive herself, DAMN!
I guess... he said.
"This break will be good for him and her...
Then he's gone.. he got dc.
The girl didn't expect this to happen between the two of them. Can't believe he's asking her to take a break.. OMG! they need a break! ouch! she said. :(
She have nothing to do but cry, cry and cry.. She cried the whole night. It's her fault, she's not mature! She admit it!
Seems he was falling apart.
That night under the cold, rainy nights, she really don't know what to do. She just browsed the pics, listened and watched his voice on his video. And she cried again. Because he broke her, kept her broken in pieces around her feet, and didn't have the courage to mend her again.
And that was how it was,because she would always be that:
Broken
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