my view on travelling

i used to like to travel. i used to enjoy the long bus rides, the waiting at the airport, the packing, the mustering of strength before the commencement of the journey.
so what's killing my interest?

sticking to a schedule over strolling aimlessly and immersing self with the place visited: or reaching places which are nearly threatened locations (likely due to exploitation, over-crowding, too many metropolitan establishments: baguio, boracay, tagaytay). disappointments can also be personal.

so, what used to move me?

1) the feeling of independence/freedom.
one of the earlier positive feelings i've learned. this reminds me as to why as a kid walking alone to another area of our subdivision was already a treat. this can recur if one decides to separate from one's travel group (galera 2005, baguio 2008).

2) momentary escape.
trying to experience or get a feel/view of someone else's lifestyle. (cebu, boacay, palawan, galera, quezon;)

3) the promise of a discovery.
usually this happens without the help of a guidebook or someone else's travel blog.

4) a state of play with a very small touch of danger.
produces feelings of exhiliration, achievement, adventure, satisfaction, happiness. may be elicited by doing things for mountain trek and encountering unexpected forces from nature underwater current; thresher shark, sailing over waves bigger than the boat transport.

5) learning to appreciate and eventually to respect another's culture.

6) finally, getting to know the Creator a little bit more.
this was my strongest mover. that inspired me to take pictures of beautiful, lively yet peaceful things rather than dreary, violent, realist pictures of daily living.
may be attained by being sensitive to one's surroundings. the soft breeze, the powerful wind from the shore, a placid water surface, the beautiful, giant waves formed by a super typhoon, an odd-looking boulder beautifully balancing itself at a cliff, the nocturnal silence and intimidating darkness, imposing wind creatures.

so what now?

should i just join each and every trip that presents itself? maybe not necessarily. sometimes a trip is more rewarding if interest for the destination has been brewing over quite some time. if curiousity towards the location fails to decline, then it's likely a good indicator that the place has to be visited. do i miss out if i don't join a trip? to some extent, but usually it depends on the location being visited.

haayy..this is just me doing clearing-my-head kind of writing. i feel i want to join this trip, but my heart's not fully into it...im trying to understand why.